the good.the bad.the ugly

at first i just thought of a normal friend ship ,and i didnt even think it might bother me later.i never forget that day, Mathew and i were waiting for them out of college. in fact i was waiting for her.finally they came and she was there too.they were getting closer and my heart was beating as fast as possible , even you cant imagine, but i gave it my best shot and told them:"hey gals why you all dont give us your numbers, it might be necessary ".she was the first one who said by a grin on her lips:"you both are going to bother us .arent you?" i dont know why she said that,it made me sad.then Mathew said:"come on it might be necessary and also some times we send some massages ."finally they all gave us their numbers,but "number" ,just her number was important to me

when we were going home on the bus Mathew said :"i wont send them any massages before they themselves start and send me one".but what he said wasnt important to me ,i was checking my archive to find a good massage to send her.then i found one and i sent it.i was worried if she answerit or not,but she answered.although she had send me an old massage ,it was the begining of our frined ship

from then on we had very good times together and some times Mathew was with us too,specially when we were going back home from collage. i remember once i told Mathew :"nothing in this word is more beautiful than the moment you hold your love's hand and feel hot love

It was two monthes that we were friends and every thing was good and i think our friend ship in that time wasnt just a friendly one,it was more than it and we were in love whit each other at least i  think we were .but it was true !actually it was just me who was it in love with the other one.because one day she told me she had had another boyfriend too.at first i thought it was a lie and maybe she was tring to make laugh at it.but one day she showed me his picture. i cant forget that moment because right when i saw the picture i found out that the guy was our distance.and i was right

it was new year's first days that she called me and asked me to finish our friend ship.i asked why and she said her first boyfriend had found out about our relationship and had called her home ,had talked to her father and had told him that he loves her daughter and wanted to marry her.so we had to finish our relationship in that moment.and if i didnt accept it he might kill one of us or may bother them.i think i cant forget thet day either.i said no and put the phone down.

I got mad.how come it was possible?!how fast could i finish this relationship.how easily?it wasnt possible  i had a bad headache and i was confused,but she herself didnt want to countinue either.i couldnt do any thing!so finally i accepted it .now i'm trying to forget her,but is it possible?i dont know but i hope and hope is a good thing

          the end

sleep.

those little slices of death

how i loathe them

"edgard alen poe"

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